Jaane kya dhundta hai ye mera dil, tujhko kya chahie zindagi….
Today, the most difficult question in my life is, “What do I want?” Does this happen to you too? It’s my life and I am all clueless about it. I have no idea, what I aspire for! Where do I want to see myself after a year or a decade? No! I don’t have answer to my own question.
I am all calm, on the outer side but, deep inside me, there’s chaos. Just like my name, Galaxy. I am a mystery to myself. A chaotic mystery. What’s hidden deep in my heart, what’s going on in my mind… I have no clue. People around me, my family and friends, often ask me the same question- “What exactly is it that your heart yearns for?” “What are your goals?” and all I can reply is – PATA NAHIN…
How do you solve your own mind’s mystery? How do you meet your own self. I am nothing but a wandering mind. My thoughts, they are far from reality. I think, I overthink too… I am living Alice (Alice of Wonderland). Of course, I dream about impossible, becoming possible. My dreams are vague, they are distant from reality. I am a hero in my dreams. The perfect one. I love playing the roles of my favourite protagonist, every now and then. Sometimes, I think I have lost my sanity. Sometimes, I think, maybe it’s because I am not doing anything that would keep me at bay from my wandering mind.
There’s definitely a problem. A problem so big, that I have decided not to see it. I ignore it. Simple!
Maharaj often, repeats, what Swamiji preached
सखी सरलता साध ले, टेडापन दे छोड़
द्वार बाहरी बंद कर, भीतर के पट खोल
How do I do this? Close the doors of outwardly space and meet my inner self. Is it possible? I don’t know. I have no answers today, but, I would solve myself, I would solve my riddle. I would know, what exactly do I want. Till then, let’s explore.
You can be part of my self-exploration journey too. Help me! find myself. And if you can’t help me, just be there, looking out for me, I will soon find my way back.
I know, I will!
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